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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 13, 2011 21:15:06 GMT -5
Mello sat on the bottom bunk in his shared room, too exhausted to climb up to his bed. His head in his hands, his sleeves were sopping wet from the tears rolling down his cheeks to his wrist, and ultimately to his shirt. Thankfully, Matt was out taking some extra courses today. That's what he gets for slacking off... Mello didn't know what he would do if Matt were to see him like this. He didn't cry in front of anyone......ever. As far as everyone else knew, Mello wasn't capable of crying, the only emotional he was able to express being anger and sometimes frustration. Sadness or remorse didn't exist for him. They were wrong. Eventually, the things that Mello so desperately tried to hide from everyone would creep their way out of his mind and leak all down his face. His sleeves were dripping by now, his eyes puffy and red. He laid back onto the soft bed, and hugged the pillow, breathing deep. Matt..... The only thing that could calm him when he was like this. The smoky, yet sweet smell of his best friend. Of course, the real Matt could always bring Mello down out of a fit of rage, but having never been there when Mello was crying, his smell would have to suffice. As Mello lay there, still slightly sobbing, he drifted off to sleep, completely unaware that his roomate should be getting out of classes soon...
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 13, 2011 22:00:54 GMT -5
Matt silently stacked his papers into the folder. He used to not be this organized, but several Mello tantrums about how Matt had laid out his controllers everywhere and Mello had stepped on them had taught him to be much cleaner. Matt groaned and stretched, letting every joint pop. The hard, wooden school desks that Wammy provided to the students prooved to be no match to Matty's rapidly growing frame. They were made for tiny school girls, not testosterone filled boys. He stood up and sighed, staring blankly out the window for a moment; gray and rainy, just how he felt due to all the extra classes he had taken. A part of him felt disappointed in himself for not trying, but he didn't find these classes beneficial. If him and Mello were going to help L capture Kira, he wasn't going to need how to spell cats correctly. Well, maybe, but he was a freakin' genius!? Why did it matter? "Bastards..." He muttered darkly as he shuffled out of the classroom, while en route to his bedroom his stomach growled menacingly, so he stopped by the kitchens to grab himself an apple and sneak a chocolate bar away from Mello. Mello.. Maybe his friend would be able to get him out of this dreary mood the weather and classes had put him in. If Mello was his usual raging self he'd easily be able to bring Matt out of his mood. Matt finally reached the door to his sanctuary and opened the door. The room seemed.... quiet. Where was the usual leather boot hanging off the foot of their bunkbed? He maneuvered around their small room and finally caught the blonde nestled around his sheets. Matt chuckled, took in a deep breathe of air and began to shout. "OH ME-"" he stopped short, looking at his friends face, which was obviously red and puffy, and were those tears?? Matt grimaced, and rested onto his knees, next to the bed. "M..Mello..?' Matt asked meekly, nudging his friend on the shoulder, almost cringing.
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 13, 2011 22:27:27 GMT -5
"Hnn...uh....hm?" Mello' frown deepened at the nudge on his shoulder. His bad dream was swirling in his head. Going to sleep upset never promotes good dreams... He shifted slightly, before opening one eye. He saw Matt's face very close to his, with such a concerned look on his face.....oh no. No, Matt couldn't be here now! He should be in class! How could time have flown by so quickly? Both of Mello's red eyes shot open now, contrasting greatly against the bright blue of his eyes, and staring into the green ones of his best friend Matt, who was never supposed to see him like this.... "No! But, you- It's not! I wasn't even! Why would you think I was-" He stuttered to cover up the fact that he had just been bawling his eyes out. He shot up and scurried to the back of the bed against the wall, followed by pulling the sheet up over his head. "Hehe, oh, Matt! What a pleasent surprise! Didn't expect you home so early! Well if you'll excuse me..." Mello rambled from beneath the sheet.
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 13, 2011 22:55:37 GMT -5
Matt's one eyebrow shot up at the stammering Mello.He let Mello ramble on for a moment not remarking on how well.. nice his eyes looked, even if they were puffy and reddened. "Hehe, oh, Matt! What a pleasent surprise! Didn't expect you home so early! Well if you'll excuse me... Matt grimaced, and scuttled to the back of the bed near his friend. "Mello. You're not fooling me, so tell me what's wrong." Matt wouldn't admit it, but he felt kind of hurt. His best friend was in some sort of obvious pain, yet Mello was trying to cover it up, build up that wall that he put everyone else in. Matt sighed, and managed to crawl under the sheets to join his friend, rather then rip them off Mello. "ohhh Mello yellloowwwww" he sung quietly, trying to find his friend under the sheet, his hand bumped onto something leather, and he pulled. Finally he spied his friends face. "So are you gonna tell me..?" He asked gently
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 13, 2011 23:22:43 GMT -5
Mello had hidden his face in his knees that were pulled up to his chest. He held firm for about five seconds, but he was just too hurt today to pretend to be anything but his true self. He whimpered softly at his friend's touch. He had never told Matt much, always being sure to keep a tough front on. It wasn't that Mello had no feelings to be hurt, it's just that he had been hurt so many times before, he couldn't risk it happening again.... By telling Matt his secrets, he was giving himself away and whoever knew would hold the key to his salvation, or his undoing. Mello just wasn't ready to take that chance.....until now. He lifted his eyes, now brimming with tears once more, to Matt's face. So concerned, and almost afraid for his friend, Mello could practically feel his worry from where he was curled up. "I.....I just.....I don't know. I feel so.....bad. This happens sometimes......but I wait until you're gone, b-because I never wanted you to see me like this....!" He burst into tears, covering his face with his hands. "I don't care anymore! I don't care! I hate this stupid school! I hate this stupid room! I hate everyone here! I hate myself! I'm just never good enough for anyone! I can't deal with it anymore, Matt! You don't get it and you never will, because you don't feel like I do! You don't care if you're rejected!! You will never understand!! I'm all alone and I always will be!! No one wants me and no one ever will!! Not even L.....Near is favored, it's obvious...Just like my parents favored drugs and alchohol over me before....I'll just never be good enough...." This time, he didn't raise his head back up.
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 14, 2011 0:09:18 GMT -5
Matt bit his lip as he let the blond ramble on for a moment, some of his words, well, they cut pretty deep. "Mello.... he muttered, feeling almost as defeated as Mello was. How was he going to say this without offending or hurting Mello? Matt took a calming breath, even tho the air under the sheets was starting to become heavy and stale. He inched closer to his friend, so he was sitting side-by-side to him. Matt wrapped his arm around Mello and brought him close, using the only gesture he could think of to comfort him. "You don't think I will understand where you're coming from, yet we're both here for the same reason. My dad didn't want me either, booze was more important to him than I was. He didn't give a rats ass about me, but, if he didn't die, I wouldn't have met you, Mello. Who else would I call my partner-in-crime? .... And if you say 'Cottonball' I WILL punch you." he smiled, but it seemed a little forced. "And L? Screw him, we would probably catch Kira in two seconds if we tried to catch him ourselves. " Matt looked at his friend and nudged him a little bit. " you're an awesome person Mello, but you'll never be alone. You'll always have me. True, I may not pay the most attention, but ill be there, half-listening."
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 14, 2011 0:32:02 GMT -5
Mello stopped sobbing the moment Matt put his arm around him. Then he realized how stupid he was acting. Of course Matt knew what he was going through....they were both sitting in an orphanage weren't they? Sure, it was a special orphanage for genius kids, but they were still in the same boat. Mello could hear the slight hurt inside of Matt's voice as he spoke calming words to Mello, his voice could calm the savage beast no matter how upset he was. He slightly snuggles into Matt's shoulder as he spoke. "...Mello, but you'll never be alone. You'll always have me. True, I may not pay the most attention, but ill be there, half-listening." Those words struck a chord in Mello. No one had ever told him that before. Never once. Everyone he cared about would just brush him aside like it was nothing, yet here was a boy who felt the same way as Mello, but was able to push through it, as well as vowing to support his friend continuously.... Who knew he was always so close. He was also very close now... Mello spun around and wrapped his arms around Matt's shoulders, burying his face in the crook of his neck. His words were muffled against the other boy's skin. "I'm so sorry you had to come find me like this, and I'm sorry I yell at you, and I'm sorry I'm so mean. You are always here for me and I never do anything for you... I just wish I could take a lot back...." More tears started flowing down Mello's cheeks onto Matt. "You're the best friend anyone could ever ask for...I shouldn't be focusing on things I've lost, I should be thankful for what I have left. I'm sorry I don't appreciate everything I do have....especially you..." He pulled away to look his friend in the eye.
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 14, 2011 1:05:47 GMT -5
It was a good thing Mello's face was hidden when he put his head into Matt's shoulder, for the redhead had turned nearly as bright as his auburn locks. Matt wrapped his arm around his friend too and rubbed his back lightly. "Don't worry about it, Mello. It's fine" he whispered. Matt managed to stop blushing right before Mello pulled away and looked at him. In those few moments Matt looked at his friend, really truly looked at him. His bright blue puffy eyes shone, true Mello's hair was a mess, knotted all over the place and he just looked disheveled. But Matt thought Mello looked ...perfect. It felt like an instinct, and in a moment Matt's lips were on Mello's. The kiss was short, and as Matt pulled away his eyes were the size of saucers. "Oh..shit! Mello! I-i'm sorry!" Matt rolled out of the sheets and off the bed, taking a few pillows with him. " I-didn't- it just- it.... Happened... Crap. " Matt covered his bright red face with his hands, chewing his lip in distress. "I'm sorry."
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 14, 2011 1:37:08 GMT -5
Mello's eyes were wide. "Oh..shit! Mello! I-i'm sorry!" He didn't move until Matt had finished trying to escape the trap of sheets. Mello touched a finger to his own lips, where a moment ago Matt's were. He could still feel the warmth from his kiss. "You kissed me..." " I-didn't- it just- it.... Happened... Crap. " Mello scooched to the edge of the bed. His eyes still wide and shining. "But.....you did. You kissed me..." Mello looked up at Matt sheepishly standing there. He looked as if someone has just driven over his Nintendo with a bulldozer. His face was bright red and his hair all full of static from being under the sheet with Mello. His clothes were a little twisted about and part of the sheet was still wrapped around his leg. He just looked pitiful. But Mello thought Matt looked......perfect. "I'm sorry." Mello stood up to stand in front of Matt. "Shut up and do it again." His arms entiwned around Matt's back and pulled him into another kiss, this one a little longer. Mello probably wasn't going to get another chance at this, so he wanted to make it last. When he finally pulled away, he looked into Matt's eyes once more. "That's for always being here when I need you." Mello said with a shy smile, one not native to his face.
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 14, 2011 17:58:07 GMT -5
Matt felt like he was literally going to die. To fall off the face of the Earth would have been a better option than what he just did. He kissed Mello. I.KISSED.MELLO?! what kind of an idiot, whyy? In all truth, he loved that he kissed Mello, even if it was for just that fraction of a second. As Matt stood there freaked out completely, his hands covering his face, profusely apologizing, biting his lip into nonexistence, Mello stood up. Matt lowered his hands for a moment, albeit a little shakily, a clear face of distress plastered upon his skin.He looked at Mello and cringed, waiting for him to kill him, to yell, to punch, to tell him how he just destroyed their friendship. "Shut up and do it again." "Wha-?" Matt began to say, completely taken aback. He was cut off by Mello's lips locking onto his own and Matt dove back in, the fears in the back of his mind vanished. When Mello pulled away Matt smiled. "Anytime.." Matt grabbed Mello's face and held it in his hands, resting his forehead on Mello's, and muttered "Well, today was interesting.. and.... happy looks good on you." Matt didn't move for a moment, just enjoying the view, but it was interrupted by an angry growl from his stomach. He whined. " I forgot I was hungry, I grabbed some food before I came in. Here, grabbed you this." Matt bent down and picked the chocolate bar off the floor, and put it in Mello's hand. He took a bite of the apple he had and sat back down on his bed, and grinned.
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 14, 2011 20:46:21 GMT -5
"Well, today was interesting.. and.... happy looks good on you." Mello blushed and grinned up at Matt. His fears and upset emotions had all melted away, as they always did when he was with Matt. As Matt held his face in his hands, everything seemed to be moving in slow motion, and he didn't mind. He had never felt so safe and loved in his entire life.....he wasn't in any rush.The moment seemed absolutely perfect. Nothing on the earth could mov- GURRRGLE. Matt's stomach, of course. Mello threw his head back and laughed. It was never a dull moment with Matt, even when they were practically confessing feelings of love for each other. " I forgot I was hungry, I grabbed some food before I came in. Here, grabbed you this." Mello gladly took the chocolate bar and smiled. How did he ever get this lucky? Was it just luck? Or was it a fate decided by a God that Mello had thought abandoned him long ago? Mello glanced over at Matt, now sitting back on his bed, biting into an apple. "What did I ever do to deserve someone like you?" He smiled sheepishly, unwrapping the tin foil wrapping convering his chocolate. He snapped off a piece of the corner, and reached out to tossle Matt's hair. Soft, silky, auburn. He really was beautiful; something Mello had never before noticed. Well, he was just glad that he did now. He hopped up to his bunk and sat on the edge, letting his feet dangle over the side. "So what now, Matt?"
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 14, 2011 23:31:26 GMT -5
OOC:TO Thee ORPHAN BED, good miss! Matt dove hungrily into his apple, trying to calm the storm raging within him. "What did I ever do to deserve someone like you?" "Well, you leave me alone when I play video games, that's a trait not many have, plus, you and i both have the same preference in rule breaking."he smiled.Matt caught the corner of his reflection in a mirror on Mello's dresser, noticing how unkempt his hair was he tried in vain to flatten it, but the next moment Mello had tossed it around. He mock-glared at the blond and then took another bite of his apple, throwing the remains in the rubbish bin by his bunk. "So what now, Matt?" "Well. hmm. I was thinking that.. nevermind I'll show you." with Edward Cullen-like agility Matt had hopped up onto Mello's bunk and pinned him down, straddling on top of Mello to hold him down. Matt's breath was quiet, yet his chest was heaving.He took a moment to stare at his friend, lover, well- whatever Mello was- and leered, wiggling his eyebrows at the blond boy. He craned his neck downward, baring his teeth and took a bite of Mello's chocolate bar hiding in Mello's hand. Matt grinned and sat back up, enjoying his treat. Chocolate wasn't nearly his thing, yet taking it like that was quite enjoyable, especially to see the look on Mello's face when he was pinned down. "So what now, Mello?" [/i] Matt smirked. [/blockquote]
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 15, 2011 0:21:46 GMT -5
[OOC: omg the orphan bed....if only, if only lol....why theheck did we need to share that anyway? lmao] Mello sat up and looked down at his chocolate bar that now had another bite mark in it. Oh, so he was going to play THAT game, was he? Matt seemed all of a sudden very eager to be physical with Mello, in a romantic way? What was this? Mello didn't know, but he liked it. Mello could honestly say, that in all the years they had shared a room, Matt had never once been where he is right now: on Mellos top bunk. Yet today, here he was, sitting across from Mello on the once neatly made bed. What was this sudden change? Had seeing Mello cry turned him into a more aggressive person? At least for the time being? All this flirty contact was fun, so Mello decided to play the lovegame. Mello took another quick chomp of chocolate. "You know, Matty," Mello said, moving closer to where Matt was seated. "You really ought to be more careful. I'm a very unpredictable person, there's no telling what I'll do next..." He hopped into Matt's lap. Carefully, he reached up and pulled the red-head's goggles off of his face and over his head. "There. Now I can see your eyes. No hiding anything from me now..." He placed hands on either sides of Matt's head on the wall, and leaned close to his face, teasing him.
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Post by M4ttyB43r on Aug 15, 2011 1:10:22 GMT -5
OOC: obviously because we both wanted to sleep there. Plus sleeping alone sucks. You really ought to be more careful. I'm a very unpredictable person, there's no telling what I'll do next..." "oh god! No! Please don't beat me over the head with a bar of chocolate" he whimpered in mock-horror. Matt inwardly groaned when Mello had sat on his lap. 'shit.shit. What did I just get myself into? Well, might as well go along, I did start this afterall.' Matt wrapped his arms around Mello's back and pulled him a little closer. As Mello pulled off Matt's glasses he scratched Mello's back lightly. " All I wanted was a piece of chocolate, I wasn't trying to hide anything, honest." Mello leaned in and Matt stared at him for a moment, trying his best to remember to breathe. There were butterflies in his stomach and his palms were slighty sweaty. Even normally Mello was an intimidating person, but this close was insane, Matt wasn't sure if he could handle it, yet he loved every second of it. He was surely enjoying himself and stared into Mello's blue hues. Matt leaned in and closing the distance he kissed mello quickly and then leaned in so his mouth was next to Mello's ear. "I love you, Mello" Matt nibbled Mello's earlobe and then threw the boy off him, smirking all the while. If Melllo was going to tease him Matt figured he would do the same.
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Post by mellodramatic on Aug 15, 2011 22:30:02 GMT -5
Mello landed on his back on his bed. He just lay there for a moment, taking in what Matt had said.... "I love you, Mello..." He thought about that statement. Of course, their friendship had always been strong, nearly unbreakable, but never once had Mello thought that it would or even could be love. Matt has always been his friend, partner, comrade, his shoulder to cry on. This was something new. Today seemed to be the beginning of many things for he and Matt. Who knew they would be doing these sort of things? Mello certainly didn't. He wondered about his feelings...did he love Matt too? And if he did, how could he be sure? Matt didn't seem to struggle in saying it, so why does it have to be a long thought process for Mello? It was all very strange, yet at the same time exciting. A smile spread across Mello's face and he laughed out loud. He propped himself up on his elbows. "Do you really love me, Matt? Or are you just saying that? I don't like to be lied to, you know." Mello dropped his eyes down slightly. "I don't want to say that I love you too until I can be sure I won't be hurt..." A more serious look spread across his face, contrasting the smile he displayed moments ago.
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